some people never seize to amaze me, and not necessarily always in a good way.
the concerned friend, the wise friend to calm me down, the friend who i always dimissed and tried to ignore and the friend who i needed most and wasn't there.
then there were the ones that dont understand no.
that were selfish and disregarded my feelings and made me feel the worst i have felt in a really long time.
and then there was you, without a question in your mind you were there for me, no hidden motives, only my best interest in mind. reassuring it wasn't my fault, that you were sorry, and that you should have done more. when really everything you did was what i needed, my most vounerable moment, and maybe yours. i'm sorry you had to see me like that.
all last night i felt completly alone, although clearly i wasn't, but close just wasn't close enough. i couldn't sleep, all i could do was think. this morning i didnt want to get out of bed, i didnt want conversation, i just wanted to lay there and feel like i know the person next to me actually cares for a brief moment
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