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we alternated sleeping the day way. last night there were no good night kisses and no good morning kisses when i woke either. my concerns were dismissed and you told me to shut up- you had already heard them. your now off in the living room helping your roomate clean, and i'm bored and maybe a little confused. what happens when i feel alone when i'm with you, and your not even here for me to talk to. the last two weekends i've spent my last few hours in oakville for the weekend alone in your room. making the bed, tidying up odds and ends trying to prove i'm still the perfect girlfriend. but not today. the sheets will remain slept in, your desk--with dishes and papers everywhere and tables covered in cigarette leftovers and bong water.